*told you it wasn't what you thought* Anxiety. Borderline Personality Disorder...it goes on...but we will just lump it into I'm Mental :)
It is nothing I try to actively deny, mind you, but not something I shout from the rooftops. It isn't that I am ashamed of what I live with, it is more tiresome and exhausting *borderline frustrating* to try to get someone who isn't living this way to not really UNDERSTAND but to ??Learn?? Empathize?? I guess? I do not wish living with ANY sort of mental "illness" to anyone, it's downright frustrating ..so I also do not expect people who do not to understand how I am feeling at any moment ( I don't understand how it is to live without a limb..people do it...I can't understand it...Bless them for being strong to do it... but I do not KNOW what they are going through!) and I do not expect them to try.
What I DO expect is a respect for the way I need to do things to function. I expect that I am going to do MY best on even the hardest of days to function and I expect a lil mental acknowledgement that "hey she is trying...I am not going to bust her ass every second cuz she isn't on MY level..." and I respectfully try to keep up with those I am around. Most of the time, with disclaimer as to how I am feeling that day.
I also expect to be taught information in a way that is not only respectful but without "preaching" or "demanding" that I follow it immediately without letting it soak in first. I haven't lived as long as I have , with what I do and You are not going to TELL me "Well I think You need to go to this new Therapy I saw ..It is going to work...BAM go.".... Have you ever put a cat on a leash? Yeah it's like that. Immobility. Show me what you have found, tell me how you FEEL about the treatment/med/activity, how you think it may help me, let me choose to go, offer support...and 99% of the time... I am SOOOOO on that train!
Ok so What brought me here? Well.. I found this ADORIBLE post on my FB and ...it summed things up so well. There is not even one I disagree with ..I hope you enjoy it as much as I did....
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| This was SOOO Me this MORNING!! |
I am sure this is not the first time I will talk about my Mentalness .... soooo I will just end my ramblies here cuz...well that is how my superbrain works.
TTFN!
xXx
Lexy
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