It has been a very ....rollercoaster... week thusfar. And here we are THURSDAY again?! Holy balls. Let's see.... I think on the Anxiety Meter this week *and I am counting since oh Monday...* Has been *ding ding ding* Off the Chart! YAY! *blinks un-bemused* Srusly.
Short list? Don't mind if I do. I am currently gathering my shiz together to move which is supposed to be an exciting life altering time in anyone's life yet ...oh Family you love to shove that fork in my garbage disposal of life don't you? *Crazyassmotherfuckerreeaaly?* Breaking news to certain members of my bloodline is liken to approaching the mentally syphilitic deranged liege of some medieval bum-fuck kingdom where the subjects tend to either look the other way or are in utter denial of their royalty's declining mental state and the fact they sometimes run around naked with chickens on their head while screaming the lyrics to game show openings. Annyyywayyyyssss...just setting the scene for you. So...breaking this news you are going in KNOWING that it is not going to go well but I also have this foolish glimmer of hope that someday I will hit on some way of speaking a language which does not illicit a response that is traumatic for all *including bystanders* and is much like an atom bomb going off. --This was an utter failure , btw... --
Accusations flew, Nasty words were said, statements that will stick wounds for a while within myself and I just took that shit like a trooper yes I did. Though not lying down, which is something that sets me aside from those in the kingdom who enjoy looking the other way. I ...am not blessed with this 'gift' of ignorance. So I handled the situation to the best of my ability then like any war worn hero , trodded back to my lil fortress of solitude and....
....had a mental eff'ing breakdown. Cuz godamnit I needed one. And with that done and my body and mind in a worn state I closed that day ....Amens.
The next few days flew by with a couple days of veiled phone calls of the sort where they start out cordial but end up with someone *yeah I admit, Me * hanging up once I notify the other people "Yeah not taking your abuse, calm down and call back". -click- *Sidenote: anyone else miss slamming phone receivers down? I do.*
Today was spent doing errands for The Liege of CooCoo Kingdom and end result was aggravating my physical condition till I now need a couple days recoup. I am not letting this get me down though, sure a few things need to be pushed a day or two but all in all I am proud of what I have accomplished on my own lil footsies here.. *Even got my laundry done today, eh eh yeahhh, high five!* and I am sure that once all is done. I will be better off for everything I am going through.
Because as I have always observed and been taught: when something is worth reaching for, you are going to be tested to get it. Makes the achievement all the more satisfying.
On a lil sillier note got some photos to post *if i get off my lazy rump to do so* of some cute shyz I saw in my travels today.
XxX
Lexy
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